Anxiety

That night, when the clock struck twelve, she closed her eyes and let her imagination fly away as free as a bird soaring in the sky. Making a little trip to the past would not do much harm, would it? Better not! She was safe in the present time. Twelve past twelve. She quickly made a wish. Dreaming about the future would not cause much damage, would it? Better not! She was safe in the present time. She opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling for a while. She did not feel like sleeping. Her mind was slowly drowning in her thoughts. Inner thoughts. Inner drama. Inner… fears. Why was she so scared? She has been feeling so depressed lately. Depressed and coward. Was that what she was? No, of course not! She had always been so secure and confident, full of joy and with a great sense of humor. What has changed then? She did not know. She felt a lump in her throat. A tear fell from her eyes. Then another. She was twenty-three and felt like she had not started living yet. Every time, every single time she stepped into the future something or someone pulled her legs down making her fall on the ground. She was getting tired of that situation. She had dreams and plans and would not let anyone interfere with her issues again. She wanted to get out of there, go far, far away to her icy wonderland. But would she ever? Oh, come on, young woman! It is time to think about you and ONLY you. Not in a selfish kind of way, but in an “I need to get my self-confidence back so I can be happy and make people around me happy as well” kind of way. It will not be easy, but I am sure you can succeed. And YOU know you can. Even in sadness, even in pain, but NOT YET DEAD!